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My Darling Daughter
My father always liked to tell us how his grandfather— who had eight children and uncounted grandchildren— would greet him, “By God, Son, which one are you?” He also liked to relate how his grandfather always ate dinner at the head of the table, served by his wife, while everyone else stood by and waited in silence until he was finished. One day, I’m told, he drank from a bottle of shoe polish while the dismayed entourage looked on speechless, afraid of arousing the ire of the patriarch yet fearing he’d take sick and die. “What about your grandmother?” we’d always ask. “Did she love you? Was she nice to you?” Dad said he really didn’t know, she never said much of anything. We grew up with the idea of an oppressive tyrant waited on hand and foot by his long-suffering slave of a wife. Not a pretty picture.

Recently, I received information from an uncle and an aunt, both years older than my father, which drastically changed my ideas about these forebears. His mother brought my great-grandfather to this country at the age of nine, along with three sisters. She was escaping a vile marriage to the town drunk. Great grandfather grew up and founded a factory. He married a woman whose parents had emigrated from a town just a few miles away from his. She had been deaf since the age of seven, so it is not surprising that she didn’t say much-- she didn’t hear anything! When I told my father, he was shocked; no one had ever told him. And [no one] ever told me that the oh-so tyrannical man was greatly respected in his adopted city for his service in the Civil War and his patriotism in World War I. He was revered for keeping his factory open and, at great personal expense, continuing to pay his workers during the Great Depression.

You can see how it goes in families, how we share a gene pool and a common history, but run afoul of each other when we do not share a common experience or memory of people, places, and things.


Other things we do or do not pass on to our children, intentionally, or not, can be subtler, more damaging. A break in the chain of memory (death, divorce, abandonment) can be so devastating that its effect ripples across generations. Misunderstandings can cause family members to line up on battlefields like soldiers in opposing camps. Unintentional slights can assume a froth of gigantic proportions, like an unstirred sauce at a fierce boil. Remember when you told me about “Rosebud?” You thought it was your other grandfather’s special name for you until you heard him call your little cousin by the same name. You confessed you never felt the same affection for him after that. I wish you had spoken up right away, because it was too late to remedy by the time you did. But you were too young and did not know.

The rift in the chain of memory caused by early deaths in our family has cost you dearly, as it has cost me. I came to this realization rather late, too late to remedy; but like you, I was too young and did not know how. As old as they were, none of your grandparents were old enough. I was angry with them for a long time, though I tried all the while to act as if nothing were [or] ever had been amiss. That had always been the clear expectation on both sides of our family- if you do not talk about it, it never happened. Then one day, out of the blue, I heard magical words. They came from my father through your father. Very simply, he said, “I was a bad grandfather, wasn’t I?” There’s really no way to answer that, and I doubt an answer was expected. But in that moment he achieved redemption in my heart because I knew he never meant to bad; he just didn’t know how to be good.

My Dear, you too will be happier if you can forgive. Trust that no one meant to hurt you. Accept the broken links that can never be repaired. See to it that the links going forward stay strong, insofar as it is within your power to do so, because you have only one family

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